Love believes all things…

Today’s is a short one.

Fight for love… Fight to protect your connection. Believe all things. Bear all things. Hope. Don’t give up, don’t run away.

We have a choice to believe the best about others. We have a choice to say no to the voices of fear and insecurity and doubt and accusation.

Choose love.

Published in: on January 30, 2015 at 5:55 am  Leave a Comment  

Gratitude

It’s easy to forget.

Still can’t get over how far I’ve come – 2 years ago next month I didn’t know how I was gonna make my bills, and called my student loan company weeping, asking to examine options for deferring repayment while I worked things out. The following month everything changed when Ashley Prior offered me a job playing bass (for real money) and I was able to work and save.  In the following two years, I went from having…

no money,

a car with serious repair needs and old tires,

single driver muddy in ears,

an old and partially floodwater-broken iphone 4,

an old line 6 pod XT live

not to mention a lot of loneliness and insecurity and a fear of vulnerability…

To having

a trailer trash board set up with real pedals (shoutout to my friend Bryan!!),

my own Westone dual-driver in ears, and recently upgrading to 1964ears‬ custom molded in ears(with encouragement and help from my dear friend Rachael),

a new(to me) MacBook Pro retina (with help from my good friend Matthew),

a new iPhone 6 (with help from Mom)

a car with 4 new tires, properly aligned wheels (a feat I had previously been told was not possible due to irreparable damage) and a brand new tie rod/etc with help from my friend Doug,

TWO jobs doing what I love (playing bass and running live sound),

a third job getting to delve into the edges of the medical field thanks to my friend Richard

And a much stronger view of myself and ability to open up with others, thanks to many of the aforementioned and also thanks to wonderful friends such as JayeJoanna, JD, Genevra, and many others…

So, in short, I have been abundantly cared for in both financial provision and with good friends. I am stopping to contemplate this, because it is so easy to lose perspective of how much good we have been given. I am thankful for this moment of clarity. I hope you also can get a moment outside of whatever fog has tried to swallow your light and remember all that His hand has provided.

Published in: on January 15, 2015 at 4:33 am  Leave a Comment  

Sometimes it’s better not to have a plan… Or is it?

Well, my readers. It’s been a while. I keep trying to come up with great series and such, and promising these things before I’ve completed them – and then this or that falls through, or life happens and I am busy, and I don’t do it. So I’m tossing that out for now. Here I am. I’m just going to start writing. I’ve left this alone for too long.

Sometimes it’s better not to have a plan. Or is it?

Plans… expectations. I’ve been thinking about this – convenient segue, ain’t it?
The terms are sort of interchangeable, at least the way I use them. In fact, I think most often I think I’ve made plans when what I’ve really done was set an expectation. I think I need to redefine these terms. At the end of the day, I think what I am advocating isn’t a forsaking of plans, but a laying down of expectations and a clear line drawn between planning and setting an expectation. Goals and plans are helpful. The expectation that I will complete something to such and such a degree within x amount of time, that always does me in. I make grand expectations and call it planning – ha! Planning is so much more. Planning involves a – what a convenient phrase – PLAN of action! Expectation is just vision casting without a roadmap.

I am tired of not accomplishing what I set out to do because of my lack of well-laid plans. Of course, we also know that there is truth to the phrase about the best laid plans of mice and men (they often go awry), but developing a plan – not just a high expectation with no course of action – is at least a starting point.

SO, that being said, perhaps instead of setting an expectation to produce great material, I will just plan to write. Some great material will come. Maybe some not-so-great material, too. But I want to be able to look back a year from now and pick out the great from the not-so-great. So instead of promising great expectations, (wow, Sierra, so many high school literary references tonight), I come here to form a plan – my plan is to engage with this place two times per week. Twice a week. Not a specific day or time. If that means that next Sunday rolls around and I crack out two separate posts in one night, so be it. That’s a two-time minimum. I am hoping that momentum will get us more than just two a week. After some time, I will catalogue what I already have. Here’s to the process, and to the plan, and to whatever ways it may go awry, and once again to the journey because I think that is incredibly important.

Thanks for reading 🙂

Published in: on January 12, 2015 at 2:13 am  Leave a Comment